Friday, January 22, 2016

Acting UP for 40 Days: Week 1 - Finding Balance

The word balance has been haunting my brain for the last 2 weeks. The word in bold letters will blatantly show up in my mind's eye lingering and begging for attention. 

BALANCE..
                 BALANCE...
                                 BALANCE.....

As much as I try to ignore it, out of no where the pesky word starts to itch on my frontal lobe like a Texas-sized Mosquito bite on the worst part of my body... the ankle. 

BALANCE...
                 BALANCE.....
                                  BALANCE.........

Without even me putting thought to it, my subconscious keeps screaming the mantra...

BALANCE...

BALANCE......

BALANCE..........

OK!!!! I get it! My life is in disarray. I can't help it if I'm a passionate person who believes I can take on 5 totally different projects all at one time, going at it 100%. It's my gift of multi-tasking. It's not that bad is it?? HA! These days it honestly feels like a passion of horror. I recently realized that I have this false sense of belief that I can do anything and everything in this world. No, it's not a bad thing, but it is when it's 10 different things going on at one time.

I was recently introduced to a 40 day Personal Revolution program hosted by a local Houston yoga studio. It couldn't have come at a more perfect time in my life. As we all try to piece our lives together after the holidays, January is the best time to reflect on what has happened and where you want your life to go. Starting in October, my life felt like it was spiraling out of control. The past and all the things I was ignoring started to come back and haunt me like an angry spirit stuck in limbo. All things that I pushed to to back of my mind started to creep its way to the forefront and it was pretty relentless.

This experience has taught me a lot about myself. I now have a full understanding of "presence." It doesn't only mean that you have to physically be there for someone else, but you also have to be there  most importantly for YOURSELF. A strong foundation is what keeps a house standing for hundreds of years. You will not last 30+ years of your life if your foundation is falling apart. Mine was getting pretty unstable.

My intentions for these 40 days is to find BALANCE. I want to be able to balance a healthy lifestyle with my ever consuming thriving business. I want to balance peace and joy in my heart so that I can spread it to others around me. I have big dreams in my life and I'm tired of just thinking about it, I need to be living it. Prioritizing and balancing the things I love to do will help me create that foundation I need to grow as a human being. This first week of 40 days is coming to an end and already I'm starting to feel the changes in my soul. I was excited for day 1 and now I'm thrilled to see who I become at day 40.